Tuesday, November 13, 2012

OPINIONATED

I am not ok at all with teen pregnancies, and girls getting pregnant either without being married, or without the boyfriend in their lives -- at a young age, that is.

I see many girls getting pregnant right out of high school, and frankly, it sickens me! Some of these girls are so immature, and they think that they know everything. They act like hot shit because they're pregnant, and think that for some reason they're growing up the right way. Mind you, I don't believe that my way is necessarily the right way, but get real... Having a child is perhaps the most important decision a person can make. I don't think some people understand that it means growing another human being inside of her. It means going through hours of labor, and after that, raising a child for its entire life.

I personally feel that this is not the right way to grow up. If I were to get pregnant right now, it'd be a mistake. I'm not married, my education is not finished, I am selfish, I can barely take care of myself, and I don't have a job. I feel that education takes precedence over everything. Without an education, I am not capable of much. The same cannot be said about many people, because some people possess natural skills. I, however, am not one of those people. I feel a need to learn, and attain multiple degrees to pursue my dream job.

I'm not saying that a person needs to be married to have a baby. I'm not saying that at all. The father of the baby, however, should want to be involved in the child's life. The father should be around. How can someone idealize being a single parent? I could never.

I really just don't understand why many girls have babies when the father doesn't want to be present, or if their lives are not even stable. Many are still in school and they decide that having a child won't delay their own progress. Well, that's usually not the case.

A child should grow up in a stable setting. Having a baby doesn't instantly make a person mature. It forces one to mature faster, and really grow up, but how can a baby take care of a baby? It doesn't make sense to me.

Some girls are too stupid, and I am afraid for future generations. Eugenics, please.

(I'm kidding about the eugenics.)

E

Sunday, October 7, 2012

It kills me to see you go. Nothing in the world can prepare me for something like this. I stay up at night with a soaked pillow because I don't know what else to do. Maybe it's just bad timing, but I can't help but think I did something wrong. I can't help to think this is all my fault, and you're trying to tell me that it's not so I can move on.

Sometimes I hate that I love you, but even when I do, I can't help but to love you to pieces. Everything about you makes me feel like you are the perfect man, although it doesn't seem like it sometimes. What initially drew me to you stands strong, and I know exactly why I love you the way I do. Despite the little things that I'm not too fond of, I still find myself trying to compromise and love everything about you. I know it doesn't seem like it, but I try. I try because nothing would make me happier than to be with you, in your arms.

The connection and bond that we shared was beyond mental and physical, which is really what makes this the hardest thing in the world. I'm sorry I couldn't give you everything you deserved, and that I couldn't be better for you.

Monday, October 1, 2012

xx

I can't tolerate a man who thinks that he needs to step into my affairs and solve every single one of my problems. Where's a woman's autonomy? I was just looking through some things and it made me so irritated when I remembered someone saying "I had to go take care of some problems, for you". Arright dude, it's one thing to take care of a problem, but it's another to take care of a problem for me. Had I felt it was an issue, I would have solved it on my own.

Just a thought, since people do some stupid ass shit nowadays. There's a difference between being a man, and being downright overbearing. Here's a simple solution to life: don't fucking be overbearing!

Sigh, the things that seem like they should be the simplest in life really turn out to be such fucking challenges for some people.

Back to cram time!

byE

Sunday, September 16, 2012

^_^

So in love

I can't even believe it sometimes. I'm growing as a person, so is he, and I'm so happy that we can grow together.

Sunday, September 9, 2012

IN PLACE

Everything feels so.. right & in place.
At the end of the day, I'm in love with him.

Whaaat is my life!
Anyways, the sky is gorgeous right now, and the weather looks beautiful, but I have to spend my time in bed today bc I only get to do this once a week! I have to drive back tonight, too. These cramps are sooo ridiculously bad, too.

And I'm sore as hell from my workout yesterday. Ommmgaaaaah. It hurts so bad when I turn to my side.

k BYe

Saturday, September 1, 2012

blah.

Wish I never fucking met you or had anything to do with you. At least I know better now.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

leave you, move on to a perfect stranger

You talk, I walk, wanna feel the danger
You see me with him and it's turning you on
It's got me sayin, getting me back at the end of this song
Get outta my way


Hellllo
I should be studying right now, but I'm just not.... I want to take a shower before I continue reading for my next class. I love Berkeley!

I went to the health center today for my doctor's appt. She recommended acupuncture and lots of fluids. Acupuncture is covered by my health insurance! Yay. I ate my muffin while walking to school, and had nothing to do when I got there so I played bejeweled until it was time for class.

Today while I was walking to the health center, a guy tried to pull the "my car ran out of gas, can you give me $5" bullshit. There were lots of people around, I don't know why he targeted me. Sounded all pissed off when I told him I didn't have cash too. Should have just pepper sprayed him for the hell of it.

I've been doing so much walking lately that my toes actually hurt! :( Maybe I need more comfortable shoes? Whatevs. I also need to return hella shit to amazon and stuff because, surprisingly, the bookstore had cheaper prices than amazon.. Well, I'm also renting my books, so that definitely makes a huge difference.

I feel like I should shower soon, then get back to reading. I have a discussion tomorrow at 1. Man, I don't get off til 6:30 tomorrow, then I have to prepare to drive home right afterwards. Oh well, I'm pretty excited to go home... Dunno why, just am!

Thinking about what I should eat for breakfast tomorrow. Probably oatmeal... Ah, I'll decide in the morning.

Shit. I was supposed to go to target today but I wasn't feeling well and had my Dr's appt. Oh well, next week.

kbye