hell0.

in the beginning of everything, it all seems so perfect and happy. there are no arguments. there are no fights. there are tons of jokes, and what seems like infinite laughter. when does it end? when is it going to start going sour?

i'm not as broken as i feel sometimes. i'm not that scarred. past experiences have left me in a place where i feel like everything has to go wrong. i just want to feel secure for once. right now, i am trying my hardest to believe that i'm getting into something good. i am trying to believe that i am involved in something that is worthwhile. i'm happy when i'm with him. i like being around him. that's how all these things start, though. i'm afraid to repeat what happened before.

anyways.. b + i hung out all day yesterday. costco, target, my house, his house, popeyes, jtown, shabu house + exploring. it was actually pretty eventful. my car freshener smells exactly like his, but his is stronger, and mine is CUTER. mooo! i like that he can make jokes w/me and not get offended. totally opposite from my last relationship.

ultimately, you get into a relationship with someone because that person makes you feel happy in ways that others can't. i usually hate staying out at night, but i really enjoy staying out w/him & we just talk for a long ass time. got home @ like 1am last night and we both hadda wake up early for work lol :(

bYE