Sunday, January 29, 2012

games

i've always told myself that i want that guy who makes me stop playing games. not forcefully, but in a way that i don't even wanna flirt or play around anymore.

when this started.. i didn't really care much for it. i was just like ok...i like the dude, he's cool, i'll give this a try. i didn't think he liked me that much, and i didn't even really know him all that well. so when he made a move, i figured he did that with a lot of girls. cus shit, i flirted with a lot of guys. even when we decided to be exclusive with one another, i still flirted and i still had someone else on my mind. after a few weeks, maybe even more than a month.. i realized i was extremely happy.

i found a new type of happiness with this kid. he made me not want to flirt with other guys. i stopped calling everyone "honey" & "sweetie", and i kept everything strictly platonic. i told everyone i had a boyfriend, and i wanted everyone to meet him. i want to show him off to the world because he's amazing, and he's all mine.

i looooove playing games. or well, let's say i loved playing games and flirting. i'm glad that he makes me want to stop all that shit. it's not that he even says anything about it. he tells me he doesn't like it, but doesn't mind if i can't change right away... but it's not that i want to change. it's not that at all. and really, i don't even actively think about stopping my flirting habits. over time, they've just disappeared. looking back on the last three months, i've literally watched my flirting just fade away.

every single day we become closer and closer. we learn new things about each other, and we don't get tired. we don't get bored, and we don't run out of things to talk about. sometimes we just cuddle or sit around and watch tv, but we love being in each other's company. he takes care of me when i'm sick, and i take care of him.

this is all so new to me, and i can't wait to see where it goes. <3

t00dles

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

i have el stomach flu

it is not nice, i hate it.

babe has been constantly visiting me/taking care of me though. <3 he is the sweetest. even though i'm sick he still kisses me and holds me tight. :) i'm making him take airborne just so he doesn't get sick too... i hate that whenever i get sick its been the fucking stomach flu. what the hell!!! -_-

anyways.. today i woke up early and thought about going to school...but yea i just couldn't do it. was dizzy when i got out of bed =[ slept and woke up at 11. babe texted me, and he brought me wonton noodles at ~1ish. then he went to school...and then brought me eggettes at 4ish. :) heheee! and soy milk tea! that was actually not bad. tasted realllly soymilky though. we stayed in bed and watched hardcore pawn. <3 new favorite show I THINK SO.

i watched cinderella story once upon a song today. it was horrible. absolutely fucking terrible. but lucy hale can really sing!! woooo. i dont know why im blogging
im so bored..

i feel horrible too...
bye

Sunday, January 22, 2012

if you ask me how i'm doin i would say i'm doin just fine..

lez seee.... the most i can remember is last night. so i'm going to write about what i did last night and today...

got vietnamese food with daniel at night.. we went to kevin's and we both got pho. but we were still hungry so he got a rice plate and i got egg rolls :] we split the egg rolls. lmfao i was so stupid. they cut them unevenly so i was eating alternatively...but daniel was like "why don't you just eat two full ones" i did not think of it at all. so retarded. then afterwards we were like lez go tpumpsssss and we went to pick up lucy. went to tpumps and i got regular green milk tea. yuMmmm!! i love tpumps<3 i felt like i didn't have enough though. i always get large, but i got a regular size cus i wanted to be able to sleep at night.... but when i finished it i was sad! :(

afterwards we went to the parking lot and we just chilled in the car for like an hour. then we decided to go to brandon's. i was drawing on the windshield since we fogged it up pretty quickly. hhehe. daniel was like "why is it when you write on my windshield you write hella nice, but on paper you write like shit" NIGGA NO I DON'T. liar. anyways went to brandons and we fought for the bathroom. and freaked out lucy. LOL she didn't want me to talk to her while she peed. BUT I DID. because i'm terrible. anyways afterwards we just chilled in the car for a while then went to the park and played basketball in the dark=] it was too cold. i was on lucy's team at first but she was carrying the team so we switched off. i was on brandon's team and we automatically won because i made a basket. lmao i was just standing there doing nothing and he was carrying the team. :] it's no wonder i didn't do sports when i was in school. then me and lucy went to the swings and we just chilled and listened to music and talked. she's such a sweet girl, i always forget how young she is!!! haha.

then we all just chilled at the park and played with various things. they played tag while i found swingy things to play on. godddd i love being at parks at night for some reason. it's scary but i just really like it. lol. then i got really cold and i was like leme go in the carrrr -_- so we went back to the car and we chilled for literally like an hour and a half maybe even two hours. they were playing temple run and i was drawing all over the windshield and windows and we just talked. twas fun :) i love my boys+lucy. i hate that i don't see them very often... esp brandon since he lives so far!!! its a good thing daniel lives so close. :)

afterwards they wanted food so we went to in n out. i didn't get anything because i don't wanna eat junk food... in n out is the only fast food place i would go to. dunno why. but yeah, the line was HELLA long!!! omfg. the drive thru line took like 20 min... i had to pee really bad so after they got food, daniel parked and brandon and i went inside to use the bathroom. i finished faster than brandon. lmao he was like "DID YOU WASH YOUR HANDS" =__=!!! anyways afterwards we went to brandon's, then walgreens and then dropped off brandon and headed home. the drive home was quiet...... i was pretty tired :| but daniel and lucy didn't wanna go home yet so they just dropped me off and went back out. got home and went to sleep :]

this morning i woke up at 9ishhh and got ready to go to work. holy fucking shit, it took me 20 minutes to find parking at work. fucking shit. fucking asians. fuck fuck fuck. i understand its cny but FUCK!!!! parking was IMPOSSIBLE holy shit and there were SOOO many people. people lining up for lam hoa thuan and toonkee. surprisingly there were people at toonkee lmfao. they ran out of chickens so they had to go to safeway to buy chickens apparently. gross.

anyways work was kind of interesting. i guess. not really -_- it was really quiet today since it was raining and the niners game was on. people came in to buy food for it but it wasn't all that busy. i stood around for nothing a lot of hte time. and my manager made me ask my boss if we would get off early...which we did not. everyone was hella mad at my boss. every other store on irving closed early, but his ass didn't wanna close early. which was pretty unreasonable just because there was barely any business past 6. i wasn't too mad though, just cus the game was on. it's too bad that we lost:(

went to my dad's for dinner. we had hella food and i just played with my siblings and talked to my cousins. yeah. dinner was ok. right when i left it started raining pretty hard which was horrible... i can't see in the dark as it is.. like i can't really drive in the dark, so it was fucking horrid with the rain. i need to get a new prescription for contacts soon.. glasses ain't cuttin it! :( when i was parking when i got home, it was even worse .. i had to get out of the car to check and it was coming down HARD!! -_-

just took a shower now i'm here... gotta fold my clothes..which might not happen because i'm tired as fuck :(

byE

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

obsessed

mehhh. i am currently sitting at home straight chillin with a green ass face mask on. :) i look terrifying but whatevs, nobody lookin at me!

woke up hella early to take momma to the doctor... i literally drove around for 2 hrs total today in the same ass area. didn't know what to do, parking was a bitch.. i did get a smoked salmon sandwich from mollie stones thouuugh. delisshhhhhh. also bought EVOO cus i ran out. umm lezzseee... when boo woke up i talked to him on the phone for a while..then drove around more for fun..then i ended up talking to him & playing ds :) mama on cooking mama is a fucking HOAR. bitch. so picky about shit. my god!!!! i hate her. :( anyways... i went to clement and got coffee, then o'reillys to try to buy clay bars/wax. texted jason to ask whether ur supposed to claybar or wax first...apparently ur supposed to claybar first. -_-  i didn't buy anything cus i found a better deal on amazon for what im going to get and the rating was 4.5 stars/60reviews. soo it's gonna come on thurs and i'm going to wash my car again on sat =]

ooh dinner with boo's family on saturday in burlingame. it's his padre's birthday and his cousin's birthday tooo. i'm glad he's so enthusiastic about bringing me to dinners with his family. they're such nice people:) his dad is so funny omg. my family is boring compared to his .. by soo much. lOL -_-!!

anyhooo. i went to ono's earlier and bought musubi & macaroni for my mom. she really likes it. i just washed my car, and she's super shiny =] yayyy i love when my car is cleannnn !<3 i haven't washed it since LA. shit, it had hella dead bugs on the front bumper. was disgusting. how do those little fuckers stick on the car ?!?! my goddd..

babe and i want to go somewhere so badd. i'm always on groupon/livingsocial looking for good deals on vacations. i don't think we're going to be able to go anywhere until the summer:( i'm going to start saving up so we can go places.. i would get one more piggybank, but why waste money on something i'm going to keep money in when i already have plenty of things i can put money in. i'll just use my baby bottle thing or try to find a piggybank somewhere around the house, i'm sure i have one somewhere.

can't wait til my clay bar set thing comes=] it says that i have to use it in the shade..... so i guess i'll do it later in the day cus i don't have a garage to do it :( booooo.... oh wells, whatcanyado.

going out to dinner tonight with robert!!! i'm so excited. i haven't seen him since summer omggg. .. . -_- i wanna go to todam tofu house in san bruno since i haven't been there in a long time and i like their rice :) i tried tofu soup for the first time when i was in LA with booboo and i miss it!

oh man, i was supposed to go to fitness19 to check how much it would cost to join. i should do that like right now since i have nothing to do. yeuuup after i wash my face and shower, i'm going to do that. my stomach hurts. why does my stomach hurt
what in hells name is going on

kbye

Monday, January 9, 2012

t0day

HI. i'm bored so i'm blogging.

today should have been productive. i wanted to be productive when i woke up this morning, but then i fell asleep. woke up cus my phone was ringing at like 1040... boyfriend called to wake me up :( that's a first. he never calls to wake me up cus i'm always awake before him. told him i'd get ready but spent another 1/2 hr in bed first :D! hehehe. while i was eating my mom called and told me to move my car cus it was street cleaning... -___- it was 11:40 when she called me. street cleaning on my street is 12-2 so i was like ALRIGHT gotta eat fast then dip. so i got in my car at 11:58 bahahah win. got to babe's house anddddd i forgot what i did. oh yeah he was still in bed, so i got in bed with him and we cuddled while he yelled at me for being on tumblr LOLHI.

umm after like 30 min he got up to eat and i just went on the computer....thennnn we got back in bed and cuddled and fell asleep ._. woke up at 430 and just chilled in bed. such a lazy day. we miss LA so much so i guess we were just making the most out of being able to be alone for a good amount of time. bahhhh i wanna go on vacation again with my baby <3

oh right so we thought his mom threw away my balloon that i got from shengkee on saturday... turns out it just deflated hehe. but i did throw a fit for a good like 10 min because i didn't appreciate the fact that my balloon was gone. oh and he promised me ice cream! but we were too lazy to get out of bed to go get ice cream, so we're going to get ice cream on wednesday =] oh apparently i was bitching about pancakes. i would like pancakes very much. swedish pancakes from mph <3

my boyfriend is so good to me. i am beyond grateful that he is apart of my life. it's amazing that he puts up with me even though i can be so damn difficult, but he does it all with a smile on his face. i appreciate his every effort to better himself for us <3 #bestboyfriendaward

kbye

Thursday, January 5, 2012

At work...

I am using my blog a lot more now. I'm currently at work with absolutely NADA to do. My coworkers are doing lord knows what and my manager went to buy scallops.

Lalalalala. I am so bored :| nothing to do but I don't wanna go on tumblr cus it can go from puppies to porn in a matter of seconds -_- lmao fuck. Its so annoying having to be careful. Ohhh I think someone might be getting a ticket? Time to go look just kidding this guys just feeding the meter -_- lame...

Three moar fuckin hours. Someone get me outta here. I've had farrrr too much coffee today and I'm starting to hella feel it wear off. Fml ._.

Well. Business picked up for a couple mins...now its dead.

My coworker wants me to check airline tickets ._. Bye

eyes hurt -_-

as;ldfjalsk
it's morning and i'm bored. i woke up an hour ago, and didn't go back to sleep for some reason. i want to go to sleep now but i have 4 minutes until my alarm clock will go off. FABULOUS. my eyes are in so much pain i don't understand why. i need to go to costco to see the eye doctor soon. new contacts...please.. :(

i got home kind of early kind of late last night... oh well. my room doesn't stink. i wouldn't know if it did anyways, i'm disgusting. i'm not excited for work... at all. .__. fml i do not want to go to work but whatevs, gotta make money to pay my bills :x!!! i'm such a sad person. fucklife LOL. i bought a new purse. it's pretty I FUCKING LOVE IT. it's so shiny i've been wanting a bag like this for SO LONG. can't believe i found one that was on sale too <3 happygirlLLllll ok guess my life isn't so sad anymore

fuck punctuation.... it's hard to hit all the keys when im laying on my stomach cus my wrist is all pressed against the keyboard in an excruciatingly painful fashion. ahhh so last night babe + i found out that we won't be able to spend spring break together because they're situated within 3 weeks. his comes first, then a week, then mine. HOW FUCKING LAME IS THAT. i'm so sad. :( i wanted to go away with him again!! fuuuuck. not gonna be able to do that til SUMMER? :\ not a happygirl at all. LOL I AM FUCKING BIPOLAR. or i'm just tired and don't understand my emotions. i need to get out of bed sooon...but NO
FUCK
MY ALARM CLOCK
no

not ok. fuck it i'll just snooze it so i can continue blogging until the time is actually 9:30. i need to comb my hair today since my coworkers actually fucking notice when i don't comb my hair...... WHAT. nobody else ever notices. WHY do they notice. :( why why why me. SHUT UP ALARM CLOCK I HATE AIRPLANES. it's a fucking terrible song. pisses me off.

anyways. i seem like such a negative person in the morning. i love coffee. im going to get coffee later. oh crap. boyfriend's dad invited me to dinner next week ._. should i go..... oH SHIT ALSO REMINDS ME i need to delete games off r4 and put games on it for his cousin.... THATS NOT HAPPENING RIGHT NOW since i only have 7 minutes i will do it tonight when i get off work. wait no i'm going out tonight after work. ill write it down on a piece of paper somewhere and hope that i remember to do it... yeah no that's really not going to happen, i'll just tweet it cus i read my own twitter...

i haven't had starbucks in a long time. i should go to starbucks soon. i need to buy 3 more drinks to maintain my gold level <3 hehehe i am a loser. AH i also bought a gift for my friend in hawaii.... who i met on tumblr... i have to mail it. should i mail it today..wait no i have to write a card to him as well. ah that's not happening until next week, fuck im a lagger. i have so much to do..... but nothing is getting done.... whatevs. i wonder when school opens so i can go and rent my books/buy books. amazon is also fucking up for once..they can't find something that i ordered so it's delayed... i'm so sad :( it's a textbook that i need for a major class tooo...

ON A BRIGHTER NOTE. i got a 3.4 this semester, much lower than i originally wanted but shit i'm happy considering how much effort i really put into this semester.

but yeah fucklife i gotta get ready for work soon. what to wear what to wear

bye

Monday, January 2, 2012

LA ! =]

didn't take any pictures because i didn't wanna carry a bag around so i didn't wanna carry my camera around. my phones a POS too ... so nogo on taking pictures with that thing lol.

buttt i do remember everything :) or almost everything at least... i think!

dec26:
left the house at like 8:30 to pick up b... the drive down there was excruciating.. sooo fucking boring omg. stopped in firebaugh to get gas. next stop was grapevine cus i had to pee really bad. then dropped off my mom in temple city, and we went to our hotel in monrovia. didn't really know what to eat, but there was a place called taisho across the street. ate there, wasn't too bad but wasn't good either lol. the hotel was super chilll <3 ended up going out that night to target and au79. bought water & juice and had a fridge put in our room:). first time ever sleeping in the same bed with boo for an entire night. i was worried that he would snore.. but he didn't! or actually i was just knocked out fuckin COLD. i woke up a few times but got back to sleep no problemo. we woke up pretttty early the next day!

dec27:
was going to go to six flags but ended up not. stayed in san gabriel. didn't really know what to do...we went to nova cafe2 to eat and it was soooo cute. i loved the waitresses, they reminded me so much of my sacramento fam. i had a banana nut belgian waffle. babe cuts his eggs funny cus he doesn't eat the yolks. afterwards we went back to the hotel for idr what, and decided to go out for massages! we went to vivid spa...and it was fucking terrible. never going there again! they forced us to tip $10 .. i mean the massage was ok, but shit .. -_- anyways we had some jelly tea thing.. was interesting, but god, it was expensive. like $8 for a drink ! crazy.. hmm that night i don't really remember what we did. ;_; ok maybe i'm not that good at remembering things. OHHHH i know. babe and i had an argument and we fell asleep.. then we ended up going to get korean food. we didn't realize that the korean place was closing and we felt terrible so we just got a bunch of take out boxes and took it all back to the hotel. ended up eating there and we slept pretty early i believe.

dec28:
woke up to my boyfriend elbowing me... -_- he was alrdy awake so he was bothering me while i was asleep. we don't like to hold each other while we sleep, so i woke up to his arms around me... <3 was sweet=] hehe. anyways we got ready to go to six flags, and apparently i was lagging... idk. drove there, babe fell asleep during the ride. hit 5k miles on my car=] being there was funnnn but the waits for all the rides..not the bizness. not at all :(... we walked around a lot and just talked and stuff. only went on 4 rides. babe hurt his neck somehow. idk. we left around 6 and it was sOOO cold while we were waiting for the tram =[ ugh. drove back to the hotel to decide what we were going to eat. there was a little bit of traffic which sucked.. ended up going to president's thai.. OMGGGGG SOOOO FUCKING LEGIT. and hella good too. holy craaap we got hella food, and free wontons. lOL. asfl;jalsfd i wanna go again!!! we are def going again. went back to the hotel with our food to eat there. i like eating at hotels, idk why. afterwards we went swimming. the pool was tiny and babe was trying to teach me how to swim... but i'm a lost cause. HE howeverrrr is SOOO fucking sexy when he swims!! amazing. i wish he would keep up swimming<3.. anyways we went to the jacuzzi afterwards and we met the hotel owner's brother. his name was jermaine or something. he was hella fucking funny and chill. afterwards we just went up to our room and we stayed up pretty late talking about everything cus it was going to be our last night together :(

dec29:
checked out and headed home ... booo =[

imtiredbye

Sunday, January 1, 2012

2012

happy 2012 !!
lotta shit happened during 2011. happy i got out of a terrible relationship. found something worthwhile. got my first job. bought a new car. reunited with my best friend. so much more..

i'm so happy with everything right now.

my boyfriend is the sweetest. i cannot begin to describe how much i appreciate everything that he does for me. we have disagreements, and we have disputes... but we always wanna work things out. it amazes me how well he articulates himself especially when i have nothing to say. he makes me feel so much better, and i know he tries so hard every single day to be the most perfect boyfriend. i have a clear understanding that no one is perfect, and i feel so blessed to have someone who tries so hard for me. i can honestly and truly say that i feel different for him. although i can't bring myself to say that i'm in love with him, i know this relationship is worthwhile. i know that he and i will work things out together, and we will pull through obstacles that come our way. i care for him so much, and i can't wait to see what the new year brings us, more travel & more time together :)<3

i'm so fucking thankful for my best friends. daniel & ryan, especially. they're everything to me and i would do so much for them. they're always available to me when i need someone to talk to and they know exactly how i am. they know what makes me feel better and they know when to give me a reality check. i'm so thankful for them, and i don't know what i would do without them. my life would literally be so dull if i didn't have my boys. i can't find words to describe how much i love my boys because i can't imagine my life without them.


anwyays im fucking tired bye